Excerpts from a Diary

Blogger's Remorse!

It is so hard to write for the world to see about the people in my life, you know I come to the computer and I am angry and I want to talk about all the stuff that pisses me off about my housemates and their unnamed boyfriends, or about my buddy-boy-friend or about my co-workers (God that is one that I really have to restrain myself on) but I can't you. I am sure there are countless other bloggers out there that want to share but can't. Even with some of the stuff that I do let out of the bag I experience "blogger's remorse". Even when I am talking abotu people that I know but I just see them often enough to have formed some kind of intelligent opinion of them.

Okay, so this is the latest, I was commuting to work this morning an I happened to run into my neighbor, he is really a nice guy but I am live in the apartment directly above me and so whenever he and his girl have an argument I am there of most of it. Literally a fly on the wall. So I run into him this morning and he is all smiles for me and I am like, in my head of course, "damn, she f**ked you up on Saturday", and I smile and ask him really general stuff. But I know all this stuff about his personal life, and seeing that I have no life I don't know what kind of leverage he has on me. So, I am standing at the bus stop looking at him trying to seem like I know nothing, but there is so much stuff.

I think that is really weird how people perceive themselves and the way they are actually seen by other people. I was at a retirement party for one of my favorite professors at Rutgers University, she was also my advisor during my stay. She looked at me and basically told me that all my roommates thought I was a bitch my first year. Here I was thinking all this time that I was being persecuted and I was the bitch...that isn't the way the story goes but, it was just something that I was not aware of. I even have high school "acquaintances" that say that I was a bitch. Perception!

Anyway, the latest news:
I was over at my ex-boyfriend's house yesterday just hanging out with him and the new girlfriend and another chick we both know and we were talking about another "friend" of the group. Although we had never spoken about her together, when the conversation settled on her, her roommate was the first one to blurt out that she did not like her. I was shocked but it was the general concensus from everyone in the group. She is a sweet person but she just does not have a clue when it comes to living up to her responsibilities. Like she left to go to Africa and has been gone for a whole month but did not settle her bills before she left. She went all the way to Africa and left her roommate in the dark when PSE&G shut the lights and heat off on her. We were like DAMN! That is FOUL! But what can you do, you just walk away from the whole thing and shake your head.

posted by Onika @ 7:20 PM