Excerpts from a Diary

Say "Amen!"

In on of the rare occasions at work last week I had a moment, a bonding moment with my boss. I was a mother-daughter moment and I felt my heart fill. Today, as is always the case with the emotional roller-coaster I have been tied to for the past 11 months I had a few seconds or minutes where I just wanted to strangler her. I had to remind myself the my immigrant status did not guarantee me the same rights as the rest of corn-fed America.

On my way home from work, aboard the 29, I felt grateful for the few seconds of pleasure that my life has found in the past few weeks. I was with my brother this weekend and I found myself thinking about my dad a lot. On Friday he would have been 60 years old. I can't imagine not seeing that birthday myself. It seem so unfair, I am not mad just frustrated with having missed out on a lifetime of smiles. I think this entire weekend has been a time of reflection for me. I looked at my brother and saw him as I once did years ago, I felt pride at his accomplishments and his quiet reserved even when the world is a tornado around him. My sister called me last night before I fell asleep and whispered into the phone that I would not be able to reach her for a while. Baby-Daddy-drama has caused the phone to be permanently removed from the wall. I felt sad and agreed to wait for her to call me. I did not imagine that this is where we would be 9 years ago.

I am thankful for Aubrey, my sister and my brother. Still not sure about my mother.

Say "Amen and Amen!"

posted by Onika @ 9:07 PM